This week the Discover Challenge asks this: This week, tell us about a moment in which someone asked you a question you weren’t sure how to answer, whether because you didn’t know, were too uncomfortable, or thought you might offend or confuse the other person.
There is one question constantly on my mind. Years ago it was this: Will I meet someone? What will I do for a job? Will I have children? Where will I live? These are all questions most people have in their life at one time or another. With time all these questions found their answer. But there is one question I ask my self many, many times. Can I be a published author?
I have been writing for a long, long time. I won’t bore you with my age, but you can know that I have authored six manuscripts, but as of yet have not published one. Part of it is fear I suppose. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of the unknown. I believe I am a good writer but what if no one agrees? Another part is the mystery of the process. Traditional or Independent? Self-publish or let the professionals do it? It is enough to make me stark raving mad!
Over the years I have received feedback to buoy my belief I know how to write. I submitted three of my novels in writing contests, receiving awards all three times. But the ugly specter of doubt came to visit and questioned how many competitors I faced. Other writers know what this feels like as you have likely felt the same thing. I also have had friends read my work and give me great feedback. But they are friends that mean well, but may not be truthfully helpful when it comes to an honest opinion.
But I want you to know something. I am tired of the questions that remain unanswered. I want to beat the odds. I want to finally say I am a published author. I want to se my work in print.
But understand me when I say published author I just don’t mean a book in print. I mean an author who routinely sells his work. I want to launch a career for the rest of my life. I want to see my novels on a shelf in whatever bookstore I visit. As it is now I feel such a yearning for this when I enter a bookstore that I avoid them quite often. It is such an unquenchable thirst that sometimes I get pretty troubled about it.
Thankfully through this year’s National Novel Writing Month and through making connections on Word Press I feel like I have found others with the knowledge and insight to help me move forward. I feel more confident now than I ever have that I will begin to answer this question. I cannot wait to enjoy the answer.